So, since the last post... nothing has changed so far. Well... Nita is getting pissed that nothing has changed. I guess THAT changed a little... if that counts as change.

I have reached the decision (for good or ill) that I have to let the house go into foreclosure. I've come to grips with it. I don't think I ever really cared about my credit... but for some reason I've avoided it all along. It's weird... like walking along a slow river. You want to jump in and just do it, but some part of your mind is thinking, "You have NO idea what's in there, don't be an idiot". After awhile you do one of three things: Leave the river, go in slow and test it out, or say To hell with it and jump in. Sometimes the second one's not an option...

So, the house will go into foreclosure. I'm going to tell her today, she needs to know how I'm going to do this. I can't just keep giving half my paycheck away. A third is enough, thank you.

On the positive side, I saw Avatar yesterday. I took Jake and Nita and Jenny and Damian. It was an incredible thing to watch... the dawning of a new era in film making. The CG characters are amazing. Can  you still tell the CG from the "real" stuff? Yea of course... we're not quite there yet. But the stuff was incredible... it's so close it should scare actors. They did it by mapping real people, actors and actresses, using computers and digital suits to capture motion and facial expressions, which were digitized by computer. The "world" was incredibly detailed, teeming with life, details that would have been missed by earlier attempts were all there... levels of detail that should have taken tears to generate by computer. Now it's down to two years to make the movie... by this time next year it will be a year... after that, they'll start thinking about how to save the facial data and body movement information so the computer can generate CG avatars without "real" actors.

Make no mistake... if you see this movie, you are watching something that will change film-making the way The Matrix did, only moreso. The Matrix gave film makers a new way to view actors and new ways to create scenes... new ways for the audience to look at what's happening in the mind of the director. Avatar gives film-makers a new way to make ACTORS, and a way to bring levels of creativity to screen that has never been possible. The possibility for audiences to see almost directly into the mind of the director.

Anyway... that was a bright spot in the last couple weeks. Don't get me wrong, there have been a lot of them. But christmas is... stressful for me. Actually that doesn't begin to say what the season is like for me, but I don't feel like typing it all out right now. Maybe tomorrow I'll do a lil blog on what christmas means to me... and what I think it means to the American public... and how all that affects my rather fragile psyche.